September 29, 2016 -
I blinked and just like that, I am now 13 weeks along with our little peach. It has gone by so fast and still doesn't feel like a reality. Although, there are definitely times where it feels much more realistic than others. Like when I need food now or I am going to punch everyone around me in the face. Or today, at our doctor's appointment when we saw our little baby bouncing around like it had the hiccups.
Today at the appointment, the midwife was unable to find the heartbeat for a few minutes, which was really hard for me. I have always had a worry, especially the last few weeks, that something is going to happen and I will have a miscarriage. I now wonder if that plays into my lack of desire to tell the world that we are having a baby. Anyway, after two solid minutes of the midwife trying, and failing, to find a heartbeat and of me in tears, she pulled out the portable ultrasound.
The second she turned the screen around, we could see a profile of our baby and the flutter of a healthy heart! Our last appointment we saw an ultrasound, but it was barely a blurry grey dot in a sack, but this time we could see the nose, lips, arms, and it moving! It was such a relief and such a happy moment when we saw that it really was a baby and my hormonal, hunger issues are for a good reason.
Since I last wrote, which feels like forever, I did start to have some cravings! Two things, but they are basically the same thing. The first was cholula, cholula on everything. I couldn't (and still can't) eat breakfast without it! The next were chicken wings. Not just any chicken wings, but I had to make them by broiling the chicken wings until super crispy on both sides, and then mixing it in Frank's Hot Sauce. Guys, I think I'm having a boy because I want all the hot and spicy things!
I legit at chicken wings every night or every other night for two weeks. Then one night, after an hour of searching for chicken wings, we found some at Costco, I cooked them, and could hardly stomach them. They grossed me out! One of the weirdest things for me has been realizing that the things people talk about happening when they are pregnant, are all real!
There was also a period where I couldn't sleep very well. I have always been a really good sleeper. Like, my head hits the pillow and I don't move for 8.5 hours, type of a sleeper. I was waking up multiple times a night and was restless while I was sleeping. It was terrible. I don't wake up quite as much, but I am definitely not where I was before either.
All joking aside, my feelings have set in and I think we are going to have a baby boy. I'm excited to find out, but I just have a gut feeling that it's a boy. We will either find out at my next appointment, which is a fetal specialist that I have to see because of my epilepsy, or right before Thanksgiving! Just in time for the holidays! While we have told our family and some close friends, I don't think we will tell social media until we know the gender. But who knows, I may get a huge urge and tell the world!
I am so happy and honored that I have been trusted to grow and, soon, raise this special little human.
